There comes a time in every pagans journey where you hit a major wall. Guess what, this is where I am. The books out there are flooded with Witchcraft 101 and High Magick with nothing in between. Being stuck here can be frustrating to say the least, on one hand I have a good idea of where I want to go but finding the language and specific tradition can be challenging. For me, this is what the second degree is all about. When you begin, there are tons of help out there to get you started on your path and can be exciting! Then, you begin to realize that not all pagans are the same. They can range from the legalistic pagan nazi that feels their tradition is the only way to the tofu-hippie-crystal-warriors dancing frantically under the moon. If you try to discover black magick, you get the Crowley wanna be’s vomiting spells and bad poetry to prove to you how dark and evil they are despite the fact they drive a mini van. In short, the pagan community is full of fascinating people and just as many followers who just ended a full day of LARPing and call it magick. So where does an intermediate student go? F*ck if I know, but here is where I started.
Leaving an informal first-degree program, I was left with pieces of what I want and tons of sh*t I don’t want. The pieces I wanted to keep ranged from finding a patron goddess to a vague culture I want to incorporate. Then when I got past all the legalistic witches and freedom of the people I just made fun of, I realized, wait a second, this is the degree where you create your own religion. So that’s what I did, made a cult of me. This is the main thesis of the second degree as far as I’m concerned.
This is the degree where I can take the pieces of a broken journey and build the master piece of my personal occult journey. Taking the foundation of the overview I’ve been working on for what feels like a lifetime, it’s time to connect the dots. This will be my 2nd degree journey which I can assure you will last far longer than 1year and 1 day, the usual length of a degree. This will be a diary of personal discovery and hopefully a template for others to do the same, to make the cult of [your name here]. So to all my friends out there in Blogland, I finally found my voice and purpose for Fallen Furies, welcome to the religion and cult of me, Ed@n. The journey of a witch in their 2nd degree study.
The theories of magick can be diverse and mean something different to each and every one of us. For me, there are two distinctions when thinking and dealing with magick, receiving psychic energy and performing magick. When using intuition concerning magick, there are levels of communication within yourself to consider. The first is the idea of being psychic or empathetic to others around you and the second is being aware of your thoughts, wishes and desires. When I use the term psychic, what I’m referring to isn’t reading a crystal ball and predicting the future to amaze your friends at the carnival, I’m referring to the thoughts and ideas of others on a metaphysical level. This can also be seen the ability to become empathetic and internalize their energy to feel a stronger connection. This is equivalent to listening to subtle energies and becoming aware of the influence of others.
When dealing with magick, this is the act of focusing on your wants and desires and the changes needed to make that happen. Psychic ideas are listening to the energies around you and magick would be speaking your wishes and send them out to the gods and goddesses. Many times, people who are drawn to the occult tend to be very empathetic and psychically tuned to receive others negative/positive energy and confuse the impressions they receive as their own. In an attempt to repeal this energy, they will create or do magick to solve the problem received to them. The result is the occultist will begin doing magick and the work for others by becoming a vessel. In everyday life, this is when we place our focus on the needs of others and ignore or reject our own personal goals and visions. By becoming so involved in the needs of others, the true art of magick is ignored and our energy is used to benefit everyone else but ourselves.
In an attempt to gain control of my art and occult practices, I try to distinguish the difference between empathetic feelings and my genuine feelings. Before any magick, it is extremely important for me to clear all the influences of others before I begin any occult practice. This can be done by returning the unwanted energy to its rightful owner or visualizing a shielding or protection before any meditation or ritual work. Once I find the balance needed and the expulsion of others, only then will I begin any acts of magick. By giving myself protection, focus, and a stronger will, I can avoid the confusing the wants and needs of others and focus on the task at hand, what I want to accomplish with my occult practice. You can start by returning any unwanted energies to their rightful source and create levels of protection before beginning any form of meditation and magick.