Dark circles and bruises….. No Makeup…. don’t care
I haven’t had this much Gender Dysphoria and anxiety in a long time. Why the hell does it hit so hard and out of nowhere 😞 I realized getting misgendered on the phone for 40 hours a week has put me in a depression. Ugh…. I wish so much that didn’t tear me down so much. (Sorry for the rant) I need to work on my voice or get some major coping skills.
What Is Transgender? Part 1: Gender Dysphoria: My Journey
As a member of the Transgender community, I feel it is my duty to help fill the void that is out there on what exactly is Transgender. This subject in itself could be a full book, but I wanted to lend some insight and make a quick read help elevate misconceptions and present correct terminology. Let’s start with Part 1 of this series: Gender Dysphoria.
noun: gender dysphoria
One the condition of feeling one’s emotional and psychological identity as male or female to be opposite to one’s biological sex.
Gender Dysphoria is not very common, so information on this subject is hard to find.
In fact, most people have never even heard of it. Individuals with this condition identify or framed their gender identity with those of the opposite sex. For me, I never knew the term existed until my adult years. When looking back on my teenage years, I would try anything and everything to help relieve the feelings of gender dysphoria. This feminization included nail polish, make-up, cross-dressing, and grooming. I carried these habits into my adult years until the anxiety of the dysphoria just got too difficult for me to handle. These shortcuts only made my desire greater to transition. At the time, I just chalked it under a generalized anxiety disorder, not knowing that gender dysphoria was a diagnosis of its own. The disconnect between my gender identity and gender presentation continued until I raised the white flag and called it was it was: Gender Identity Disorder or Gender Dysphoria.
By understanding the depths of this disorder and knowing that feminization wasn’t enough, I began to research Transgender and Transexual to help bring language to what I was experiencing. Starting with the idea of gender dysphoria helped me get proper perspective the on the subject and direct me to the help I needed to transition.
If you have feelings of:
Consistent feeling of being in the wrong body
Wanting to dress and act like those of the opposite sex
A sense of anxiety with your body not feeling or looking right
A preoccupation of wanting to get rid of primary and secondary sex characteristics.
If this disorder remains untreated, it can lead to:
Low Self Esteem
Poor body Image
I feel it is a crucial step to understanding the first phase of being transgender is professionally diagnose yourself with Gender Dysphoria first. It can’t recommend reaching out to trained counselors and professional enough and explore your feelings of gender identity and gender presentation if you feel unsure or stuck in your transgender journey. For me, my therapist saved my life by saying that I wasn’t alone, and there was a cause for my anxiety. This Getting language and a diagnosis were my first step of a very long and beautiful journey. I believe that having language for what you’re going through helps you understand it better and able to communicate the help you need.
What experience have you had with Gender Dysphoria? Write them in the comments below or send me a message. I’d love to hear from you lovelies 💋
Here is a great resource if you want to learn more:
Gender Dysphoria: Understanding the Symptoms and Treating Gender Dysphoria Kindle Edition
by Michelle Serena (Author)
Gender Dysphoria Understanding Symptoms
I know this song isn’t about Gender Dysphoria, but it’s always been one of my Gender Dysphoria Anthems.
A mini photoshoot by my amazing hair stylist Sanja Hodzic from Lux De Ville Denver, Colorado
Hair And Make-Up: Sanja Hodzic: Lux De Ville Salon